delayed reaction

hanging out with my cast over drinks and a baseball game on the tv. pouring rain outside, hear a sound that is either thunder or a really bad car accident. look out the window, can't really see anything because of tree cover, but can see cars veer around something. know in my heart it is an accident. get back from the window, pour another drink. one of my friends gets up from the sofa, takes his phone and goes to check out the scene to see if anyone needs help. i watch him leave. and i think, what happened to me? why am i not doing the same thing?
turns out, he was the first person on the scene to call 911. this was several minutes after accident. jaws of life are required. everyone ok. but what happened to me?