change

this word "change" has been bandied about so much over this election season that it has really been starting to get to me. i suppose because i'm looking to make "change" too. not for a buck but that would be nice too.
i've always been such a proponent of doing things new, to take advantage of whatever comes ones way, to make choices that propel change. i used to think that to be complacent was the lowest form of lazyness. complacency is what happens when you wait to die.
but recently, well to be honest, for the last 8 months, that is exactly what i've been doing. waiting. waiting for "something" to change, taking half-assed attempts at creating a new life. and each day i wake up and think, "this is the first day of my life"(as the song goes) and nothing ever happens. i used to wake up and think, "well, things can't be worse today than they were yesterday. please let something good happen. for once." luckily, those days have passed.
i had a shrink tell me once that there is no such thing as lazyness, that lazyness takes just as much energy, if not more, than action. it's just that it is black energy and it eats away our power to do anything positive or challenging.
i'd like to change that.